|  Okay, so I don't know where I should start...haha its 2 in the morning and I have work tomorrow morning but I've been trying to start this blog for awhile but I keep putting off.
OKAY just for the heck of it I'm gonna start off with my first trip to the snow of the year and who else would I would be accompanied with but with the guy who I love soooo much. Trung. HAHA  Well we left in the morning at 5 and I was super excited because I was going to drive there and that would be the furthest I ever drove but then I only made it past sacramento because I got really lazy and sleepy after we ate breakfast at Carls Jr....lame.Well we officially made it to heavenly around 9:30 and you know considering that it was a day before new year eve it wasn't super super crazy packed but still enough people to have to watch yourself while going down the slopes. I bought trung a pair of nice new goggles at the burton store before we got our tickets because his sucked ass...I'm kinda jealous cause they reflect a nice shade of green...I kinda want new ones now too. Well anyways... we bought out ski lifts and trying to save some money we got teen tickets to save a few dollars but while heading up the lifts they have these people who scan your lift ticket and out OF EVERYONE there some girl asks me what year I was born and STUPID as I was I told her I was born in 88 and she was like ...."oh so that makes you 20, right?" So there goes trung right past me and I'm being pulled aside and being told that I have to go upgrade my ticket and get back into a ridiculous long line. UGHHH I felt so stupid. SO by 10 we were finally up the lifts and getting ready to skii. It was GORGEOUS. No wind, warm, and sunny! I felt really happy because trung was so sweet and gentle with me like he always with me when I'm at the snow. Hehe it makes me so giddy inside. I don't know how to describe it but he so protective in a way and always so cautious of everything. I don't ever think I can get that same feeling with anyone else. Well I fell pretty bad a couple of times in the snow which was really sad for me because I was hoping I wouldn't fall that much but I counted 4 times, and each four were pretty bad wipeouts. To make myself feel better half of them were because of someone else falling behind me, but there was one where I fell right as I was getting off the lift. UGHHH It was horrible because I just fell face forward into the snow infront of everyone, because my ski got caught under someone else's as I was getting off so I didn't have my skiis positioned right for me to slide off so my skiis snapped off and I fell down. It should have been embarassing but I was just laughing everything off. To point something out....everyone or at least the ones that I have met are so incredibly nice and considerate of everyone. Why I point this out is that everyone is so helpful and so encouraging because when you fall there would always be someone stopping and helping you up or helping you retrieve a lost pole, article of clothing, or haha a lost ski. They help you and ask if your okay or give good tips, or in general so humble. HAHA i'm just being so stupid  but it makes me feel all warm. I love going to the snow. ANWYAYS back to my ridiclous long blog about my skii trip... I have more to talk about!  Well I went off the marked runs a lot this time with Trung and one in particular was really nice because there was one that was completely empty and I was wondering why because it was so nice and looked really easy. So me and Trung went on it and Trung was like "OOOO fresh powder!" and decides to snowboard over it but suddenly stops and sinks in it. Hahah I was laughing and had to stop and take off my skiis and crawl to him in the snow to help dig him out. It was a really sweet moment because we got to rest because it took all of our energy to get him out of the snow and just to crawl back out of the snow. So we sat there and took some pictures and headed down the hill and guess what, I found of the reason why the run was empty because it was extremely bumpy towards the end of the run...lets just say I fell there. So after 4 or 5 hours of non stop skiing (I didn't even think it was that long) we headed out to my car to eat some food we bought at a walmart we had bought earlier in the day. We were too exhausted..or at least I was to get back out onto the snow. My intention was to go back out but then after eatting I was pooped and fell asleep int he car. So we packed up and got ready to leave and pulling out of the parking lot Trung was like..."hey want to pull up somewhere and have a snowball fight?" I was like........"okay" and we drove up to a driveway and to this perfect coldasack? I dunno how to spell it but its like a round end of a driveway... well it was nice because it away from everywhere and had plenty of nice soft snow and well we had a crazy snowball fight and god damn all I got to say is that trung can aim hella good. Haha it was nice and super sweet, that fagoot even threw me into the snow, but god by the end of it me and him were breathing like we ran a mile. We were tireeeed. I've got to say that was my favorite part of the day. END of heavenly talk. Well I was thinking a lot about things, and no its not because its a new year but I don't know I feel like as if I'm really wasting my time. I don't know why I'm saying that because I do what I want to do everyday. If I want to go somewhere I can go or if I want to plan a trip I don't have a reason why I can't go. I have the money saved up and my parents are so care-free I don't think they would care if I disappeared for a month for a trip...or even longer. I don't know how to explain it, but I just feel like I haven't done something and I don't know what it is. This feeling has been on my chest for the last month or so and its been really bothering me. I don't know why but it makes me feel so restless. I sit here and the only thing that rolls off the tip of my fingers as I type this is the word "change." I always sit here on this blog talking about change this and change that and I'm really tired of talking about change that does not happen in my life. I was going to say that I didn't but you know I can't really sit here and type this and say I have not change. I've changed a great deal I believe. I think, I think a lot differently now, not to the point to where I'm a completely different person from who I was before but where to where I'm more comfortable with things I was not with before. I accept myself more now then ever before, sure I find things to crticize myself for or set little goals I give myself. Hahaha I'm happy to say that I'm happy. I'm happy with where I am right now and you know what I think thats the reason why I'm so restless. I think I'm restless because I'm so use to being so uptight about things. Uptight with my family, with friends, with school, with responsibilities, with change. I'm not use to everything being so okay. Haha it seems like I'm asking for drama and everyone at least my friends know I hate it. But you know what I'm really happy. I'm stitting here and I'm trying to find something to say but you know what I can actually say I'm content. I feel like I have some part of my life on track, and though I don't have everything I want at this moment. I know that if I work hard enough it'll happen. God you know I'm turning 21 this year. Wow theres going to be so much I can do. haha... I'm trying to take some unsual classes... trying to see the world this year or do something different. I don;'t know I'm talking too big right now. I don't even know where the point of ths whole paragraph (big ass paragraph) is suppose to be leading too but to who ever who reads this and who knows me. Thank you. Thank you for being apart of my life. |
